Phoenix Fights

Fighting the FEAR, depression and BDP on a daily basis AND making my own bread. Bring it on 2016….




Oh I forgot to update you on my libido!

I’ve discovered (not telling how) that it does spark up when ‘provoked’, but happily stays dormant if left alone, so I reckon it will diminish entirely if I let it go.

So-oo, I’ve decided to try and masturbate with my hand held shower head in the bath at least every other day, endure the ‘less than earth shattering’ orgasm and hope that my G Spot and clitoris have ‘muscle memory’ and remember what they’re capable of instead of presenting me with such a weedy result for my efforts.

Plus a warm subtle flow of water is like being licked and it’s easier to fantasise when something’s not juddering in your hand like a pneumatic drill and making enough noise to wake up the entire building.

It’s also easier to wank in the bath as opposed to bed, where even the tiniest amount of twitching under the bedclothes incites homicidal curiosity in my cats and believe me, that ain’t no turn on!

2 days in and it’s still a bit frustratingly lacking, and I tend to feel over tingly and weak afterwards, but never mind, we shall overCOME….

And if after a month, it’s still crappy, I’m giving up, getting a loyalty card from my local bakery, retiring to a bungalow and buying a job lot of elasticated trousers.  The End!

Oh and I haven’t dared get hold of any marijuana yet, but as soon as I do, I’ll let you know if it helps at all.

Here we go, onwards and upwards! 😉


3 thoughts on “SEXUAL HEALING

  1. Possible TMI, but you started it… 😀

    My libido has basically been ravenous ever since I was 17. I remember the calmer levels I had at younger ages and laugh. In the past 8 years it has gotten much stronger, probably because that’s when I started having sex with my FwB. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a “dormant” libido…

    I’ve tried that shower thing, but even on different settings it still just feels like pressurized water…nothing like what I’ve experienced with myself/my partner. It just doesn’t provide the type of hard pressure I need. Glad it generally works for you though!

    Personally, taking care of myself in bed is the best. After all…I’ve got the “morning wood”, so might as well use it, eh?

    If I may, have you tried kicking your cats out for a bit and making use of either porn or erotica? You mentioned using marijuana (why?)but didn’t say anything about using sexy movies or stories. That’s what the Internet is really for, you know. 😉

    Oh, and if you’re worried about noise, try using BenWa balls. Again, they don’t do much for me, but apparently other women swear by them. Good luck!

    • Ha, you’ve just made me laugh out loud!

      I used to have a very high libido, and just before I turned 50 it was out of control (obviously it knew what was coming), but now I’m peri menopausal, I’m really not that interested. This is further exacerbated by my avoiding men and dating for so long and also the side effects from taking anti depressants.
      I can still arouse myself but my orgasm sucks, it’s a shadow of it’s former self, so I’m quite close to not bothering anymore, but if my dating exercise bears fruit I’ll have to drum up some enthusiasm from somewhere as if it’s not going to get better than this, I really can’t be bothered.
      That said I’m not taking into account sex with another human and what comes with that (skin on skin, mind games, being penetrated by someone) which would hopefully up the ante, but hey, it’s all a work in progress!
      Enjoy your hyperactive libido and your in house ‘supply’, I would if I were you! x

  2. Oh and I was told that marijuana was supposed to counteract the anti d’s side effects, so may well check that out too!

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