Phoenix Fights

Fighting the FEAR, depression and BDP on a daily basis AND making my own bread. Bring it on 2016….




Well, my ‘Fotherington-Tomas’ like mood ( ) didn’t last long; around 24 hours to be exact, and it then disappeared as mysteriously as it arrived, leaving me in a dubiously OK’ish mood, but hoping to maintain the serenity that came with it.

Today, I went to the largely empty park, settled under a nice big oak, lay down and stared up to the sky as the sunlight suffused the tree tops with golden, verdant light.


Just being.

Five minutes in, a couple and their kids parked their arses 3 feet behind me, presumably to enjoy the shade of my tree.  One of about 300 trees in the entire estate might I add, but mine was the only one that would do.   Apparently.

‘But still’, I thought to myself as their toddler stared open mouthed at my prone form as if I was a roadkill badger, ‘OM and all that.  Live and let live.’

Then, to add insult to injury, the guy got some paperwork out of his briefcase (briefcase?!  It’s a fucking park for Christsakes!) and started to read some kind of legal documentation out loud to his wife in a highly punch-inducing, nasal monotone.

‘…..the title includes any legal easements….subject to a deed of…..any provision to the contrary…..covenants…schedule….blah, blah….’

This went on for around 10 minutes before I snatched the contract out of his hand, tore it apart with my teeth, threw the briefcase in the paddling pool and stalked off to select another tree to settle under.

Actually I just stalked off, lucky for him I was on a post bliss day.

Talk about a buzz kill.  Why didn’t he go for the hat trick, and just drop his polyester machine wash suit trousers, get his winky out, piss in my diet Sprite and be done with it?


Then I remembered that the lovely, courageous Bloggerita7 from Heart to web had nominated me for the Liebster Award, and this was enough to chase my inner Molesworth away.  For an hour or so anyway 😉

OK, OK, I’ll get to the point!

The rules:

1. Thank the Liebster Blog presenter who nominated you and link back to their blog. (Ta luv xx)

2. Post 11 facts about yourself, answering the 11 questions you were asked and create 11 questions for your nominees. (11!!)

3. Nominate 11 blogs who you feel deserve to be noticed and leave a comment on their blog letting them know they have been chosen.

4. Display the Liebster Award logo.

5. No tag backs meaning you can’t just re nominate the person who nominated you.

So, the questions put forth to me (with my answers) are as follows:

1) Write down one of the happiest moments of your life that first comes to your mind. – Lying on a damp bed post coitus with boyfriend of the time facing a wide open window watching a tropical thunderstorm rage.  ‘Twas powerful.

2) Write down one of the saddest or toughest moments of your life that first comes to your mind. – When my young nephew had a heart attack, fell into a coma and died six months later of cancer.  Some things you can never totally come to terms with.

3) Do you love animals and would you keep pets? – To say I love animals would be an understatement.  I would have a houseful of ’em if I could.

4) What is the man/woman of your dreams like if you are single and if not what do you like best about your partner? – My ideal man would be strong, gentle, humane, ethical, funny, childish, mature, passionate, masculine, athletic, love animals and make a stonking cup of tea.  Oh and not snore or fart.  Otherwise the corks, clothes pegs and knitting needles come out….

5) Do you think all people can find love in their lifetime? – I’d like to say yes, but in my heart I don’t believe so.  Then again, I would say that, I’m a depressive and we’re not the most optimistic of folk….

6) What is your one aim or ambition for the next ten years? – To figure out WTF I’m doing here

7) What is your favorite cuisine? – Too many to choose from, but probably Modern British

8)What is your dream house like? – A mill in the countryside, a lighthouse on a beach, or this place:


9) What are your talents? – Um, mainly creative stuff

10) Do you sing or dance or both? – I dance and have sung in a choir, badly albeit.

11) Do you believe it is okay to hold on to the child in you? – It’s imperative, life is far too boring otherwise

Here are my blog nominations, all of whom are fab:

1)  Sips of Jen and Tonic

2)  don of all trades

3)  Life, the Universe and would you pass the custard creams?

4)  starkinsanity

5)  EightLeggedGemini

6)  Tarnished Sophia

7)  Menomama3’s Blog…

8)   My Gay Mom

9)  JayNine

10) Chatty Owl

11) LindaGHill

Here are my 11 questions:

1.  Do you think you are capable of killing another human being?

2.  City, country or coast?

3.  If you found £50/$50 inside a store, would you hand it in?

4.  Haagen Dazs or Ben & Jerrys?

5.  Have you ever spent money on calling into a reality TV show, which one and why?

6.  When was the last time you lost your temper and why?

7.  What have you done in your life that you are most proud of?

8.  Have you ever had sex when you really didn’t want to?

9.  What is better, being ‘nice’ or being honest?

10. Do you believe in God?

11. What would be your epitaph?

Incidentally I don’t care if you don’t do awards, don’t want to pass it on or have the badge on your website; this has taken me 90 MINUTES to do, and I’m asking you these questions because I’m INTERESTED in your opinions, so answer the damn questions *biatches, OK?!

SS x

* meant in a ‘caring’ way.



  1. Of course I’ll do it, Sista. I’d do almost anything for you! It might take me a while though. Are you a patient woman?

  2. The tree thing….this sort of thing happens to me ALL THE TIME! Wtf is it with people and their inability to judge appropriate personal space. I go to the movies maybe once a year, it’s a big deal because I spend much of my life at work or at home and venturing out anywhere in between is a chore. So on the rare occasion that I do go out I pretty much expect that everyone should understand and GTFO. It is inevitable that the time I go to the movies, I could be the only person in the theatre and when someone joins, usually just as the movie is starting, they have to sit right next to, behind or in front of me. Seriously?!?! There is an entire theatre here people!! One day I’ll resort to carrying a can of fart spray. Non-violent protest.

    • I get the same thing! The guy with the ‘fro or women with big 40’s hair dos sit right in front of me at the cinema, when all the other seats are empty, what is that? Get outta my aura you twat!

      Do me a favour and have an award and answer the questions too? I know I’m only supposed to have eleven, but rules are meant to be broken as they say…. 😉

      • Oooh I’ll take an honorary any day!

        I was going to try and do it in the comment but I am such a blabber mouth it was getting quite long. So I’m moving it to my blog 😛 Almost done but the last two are going to take me a bit.

  3. Holy cow, sista! Well, I never do awards any more, but I couldn’t resist to answer your questions! May I do it here?
    1. No and yes. I don’t think I would be able to, but I have done stuff in my life that I have never thought I’m capable of, so I don’t know, maybe it’s a yes!
    2. I’m a country girl, living in a city, longing for coast. You do the math and make sense. It doesn’t, right?
    3. Most likely, no.
    4. Neither, I don;t eat ice cream… 🙂
    5. No, never.
    6. Every day. I have zero tolerance for stupidity, I have no patience dealing with other people and in general I just lose my shit constantly.
    7. Stayed sane and haven’t killed myself. Or somebody else.
    8. Yes.
    9. Being honest. It’s better in a bigger picture, but it’s much more fun not to 😉
    10. No. Well… no, I don’t I guess.
    11. The crazy one, that never used an alarm.

    You know, I’m extremely flattered that you mentioned me in your awards 🙂 I think you are one of the crazy amazing brits out here and I only follow a few from here! I think you are purely brilliant! Stay that way, wont you? 😉

  4. ME!? lol, just when i thought you werent talking to me becuz I laughed through the entire post about your night out..seriously, i cried..I admire you so much. I admire your bravery, writing style, skill, and who you are. I am glad to have met you through here! I have hopes to one day be chased out of a park you are in, in real life someday–that would be cool eh?
    But, this weather, it’d be cooler just stay inside, away from ppl, on our keyboards, and continue to be WP Friends LOL! I send you many blessings and thanks.
    By the way, IF I dont ‘throw my PC into the nearest pool of water’ I should be able to respond to this award by weeks end.
    YOU are a great inspiration to me, and I have even shared your posts with my Teen (whom has her own personal social-phobia stuff to deal with)!
    Thank You Again my WP Family Friend xox

  5. Thank you so much for nominating us, much love and coy faces over here, I’m going to get on to answering the questions again, I tried yesterday but was interrupted by the ‘blue screen of death’, I think my lap top is trying to tell me how he feels.

  6. I said the first things that popped into my head. No over-thinking. I love this game! Thanks for the lovely nomination, lovey.

    1. Do you think you are capable of killing another human being?
    Absolutely. There’s a reason we’re the top of the food chain.
    2. City, country or coast?
    How about coastal country? I miss the smell of the sea, the salt that seeps into your skin so that when you kiss your lover you taste it on his lips.
    3. If you found £50/$50 inside a store, would you hand it in?
    Yup. Been there, done that. However, I did find a $10 bill on the sidewalk near my home and pocketed it.
    4. Haagen Dazs or Ben & Jerrys?
    Neither. A local gelato shop called Stella Luna makes the BEST lactose free stuff that is gastrointestinal heaven.
    5. Have you ever spent money on calling into a reality TV show, which one and why?-Nope. Though I have fulminated at the radio during call-in programs. I fear I would sound like a blithering eejit were I to actually get on the line. I have phoned in to win prizes on the local morning talk radio – and won, to boot!
    6. When was the last time you lost your temper and why? This morning. When my daughter asked for a drive to work at the last minute just before I had an appointment to keep. Bloody princess! I am daily irritated by something. I tried yoga to calm my mind and soothe my spirit but found all I did was stew and chew over the latest human infraction.
    7. What have you done in your life that you are most proud of? Adopting my kids.
    8. Have you ever had sex when you really didn’t want to? D’uh. In marriage it’s called “taking one for the team.”
    9. What is better, being ‘nice’ or being honest? Being nice. If I was honest no one would like me and fundamentally I’m a social critter and like having friends. I try to find nice ways to be honest.
    10. Do you believe in God? No.
    11. What would be your epitaph? When I was in high school, I had the most thoughtful English Lit teacher. On the last day of class in my final year, he went around the room and gave a quote to each kid and asked us to identify the writer. The one he gave me is “They also serve who only stand and wait” from On His Blindness by John Milton. I’m still working on living up to that quote and I suspect I will go to my grave striving to be patient.

    • These are great, no. 8 especially made me laugh!

      With you 100% on the patience thing, not my strongest suit either…

      I love questions like this too, gets you thinking and learning more about friends too 🙂

      Thanks for going to the trouble of doing this, big love xx

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  8. these questionse are great !! both the ones you were asked and the ones you ask of us.
    congrats on your award Sis and a very big thank you for thinkin’ of my humble self, i look forward to having half hour spare tomorrow to answer these 11 questions 🙂
    thanks again x

  9. 1. Do you think you are capable of killing another human being?
    A. sometimes i surprise myself. i’m sure that if the world went tits up and it’s me or them; it will be ‘them’ that stop living.
    2. City, country or coast?
    A. i’ve always lived in the countryside but would love to live by the coast, i hate city stuff.
    3. If you found £50/$50 inside a store, would you hand it in?
    A. that money belongs to me now. unless it was dropped by a pauper or pensioner. speaking from experience 🙂
    4. Haagen Dazs or Ben & Jerrys?
    A. which is cheapest? can i swap it for weed?
    5. Have you ever spent money on calling into a reality TV show, which one and why?
    A. do i look like a puppet or a sheep? that stuff will rot your brains. which is why they air it as often as possible. Free Your Minds.
    6. When was the last time you lost your temper and why?
    A. when a woman told the village that she was having my baby after anal sex.
    second thoughts, maybe i shouldn’t broadcast that.
    A. when the school told us parents to dress our kids up as their heroes, then the teachers dressed up as Cadbury’s Heroes! (to raise money for starving kids in Ghana, who probably don’t know what a cadbury is, lets rub that choco in their starving faces. well that’s what it looks like to me.
    7. What have you done in your life that you are most proud of?
    A. raising my daughter would top the list but i haven’t got time to rest on my laurels just yet, pride comes before a fall sometimes.
    8. Have you ever had sex when you really didn’t want to?
    A. short answer is yes but it was slightly better than ‘dancing by myself’ 😉 or as a friend says, “why walk when you can ride a bike.”
    9. What is better, being ‘nice’ or being honest?
    A. honesty is always the best choice.
    10. Do you believe in God?
    A. yes,
    “i call him Krsna
    my imaginary friend
    though i can’t find him.”
    11. What would be your epitaph?
    A. i love you
    (but it won’t be on a tombstone because i better not be buried)
    i will haunt the bastard who buries me 🙂 jus sayin 🙂

    • OMG, ELG, you never disappoint, do you?!
      In answer to your questions:
      4. You can have ice cream AND weed! Why didn’t I think of that?!
      6a This had me in fits laughing. I sincerely hope she’s not up the duff because that child ain’t gonna be purdy
      8. I am definitely stealing that phrase; in fact you have just put an earworm song in my head, so it is only fair that I dedicated it to you. Check it out!
      10. I’m still searching too, I’ll let you know if I see him/her/it!
      Have a good weekend lovely!
      SS x

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  11. 🙂 you’re always forgetting to link 🙂 what’s the song? i’m thinkin of Pink Floyd’s ‘Bike’ 😀

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