So here it is, the first Pity Party track of 2014, think I did quite well to keep it in all in for this long…
Everything about this song resonates deep within me; the inexplicable dissatisfaction when everyone around seems happy, the incessant, deep, damaging introspection that has me picking away at myself like a crusty, inflamed boil, and that fucking metronome slowly ticking away the seconds of my life day after day, night after night without seemingly any end in sight.
The song is so beautiful though and the ‘hmm, hmm’ of the backing vocals are hypnotic and almost mantra like, and, hey, I’ve always loved Tomorrow.
Until it becomes today.
Because then it gets written off and my focus is again on the next tomorrow, which despite all the songs to the contrary always betrays me and comes. Much to my chagrin.
And nearly ever day I fail to make something of it.
Maybe tomorrow will be different. But it rarely is.
I’ve been down and
I’m wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around