Phoenix Fights

Fighting the FEAR, depression and BDP on a daily basis AND making my own bread. Bring it on 2016….



Well folks, guess what?

I got in.  🙂

Don’t get me wrong.  Whilst I’m thrilled, I’m also nervous about it, and am now wondering what I’ve gotten myself into, or whether I’ve presented myself as something I’m not.

But I don’t think so.

This company say time and time again that they only take on people who are comfortable in their own skin, and somehow, someway, I got away with it.

But let’s face it, I’ve had plenty of practice as I’ve been pretending to be someone or something I’m not all my life because I’ve never really known who I am or where I belong.

So they must think I’m a happy, balanced human being who loves myself for who and what I am.  How the hell did that happen?  If only they knew what a self loathing, paranoid little misfit I am!

Or maybe, just maybe I am comfortable in that forum and this is what I’m meant to be doing.  I do know for a fact that I enjoyed the interview.

Excited, afraid and that most scary thing of all, hopeful.

I may not have to prove myself for some time, but once I sign on the dotted line, it’s on!

Thanks Big Guy.

I think.

Namaste x


15 thoughts on “OPTIMISTIC MIX TRACK 12 – GETTING AWAY WITH IT Electronic

  1. I’m not sure what it is that you got into. And I don’t want to know. All I know is that I’m genuinely happy for you and just want to wish you the best of luck. Congrats!

  2. This is excellent. But I still wish I knew what it is. Will I find it by seeking somewhere particular in the blog ?
    Yes, I’m being lazy asking you – I’m sorry. It’s that I’m really tired, that’s all …

  3. Fantastic! Obviously they realised you own your own skin, whether you like it or not. Will await the reveal with goggle-eyed interest.

  4. Oooo — this is so exciting!

  5. Did you hear the whoop of joy from across the Pond? So, so, SO very happy for you, my anonymous friend!


    Madame, do look past the profanity to the sentiment (sediment?) from which it springs.

    So wonderful! I can honestly aver that I do not know if I could be any more excited if something good happened to me. (Of course, that’s me and my personal strain of the English Malady. What is the relevance? None, so shut your fetid trap.)

    You have earned this! You deserve it! You can do it!

    A thousand x’s and a thousand o’s across the sea to you, beautiful Madame!

  7. Yay! It’s all good if you’re happy about it 🙂 (or even self-doubting, second-guessing, or freaking out, lol!) Hugs from across ‘ere sea m’lady.

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