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25 DAYS OF SONGS CHALLENGE: DAY 18 – A SONG THAT I LOVE BUT RARELY LISTEN TO

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I love this song. I really, really do. Especially this version.

And JC OWNS it.

He’s not just singing a cover to pad out an album or something. It’s the story of his life. His swan song, his epitaph. He sings of regrets, as he sits amongst his dusty photographs, sun bleached trophies and the rotting remains of a banquet, and of how, despite his successes, riches and luxurious lifestyle, he wished he’d done things differently, as he wife looks on, close to tears.

Within a year both of them were gone.

I can’t watch this video only once, as I am in equal parts, fascinated, moved and terrified by it.

I’m scared because it touches something dark, angry and despairing inside me, and the fear that when I’m his age, I’ll feel exactly the same way about my life.

Without all the success.

Because it feels too late to start again.

Then again, it always did, for as long as I remember.

I’ll watch it once again because it’s so beautiful, but then I’ll try and forget about it until the next time I happen upon it, when once again I’ll touch base with my darkness.

My sweetest friend.

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12 thoughts on “25 DAYS OF SONGS CHALLENGE: DAY 18 – A SONG THAT I LOVE BUT RARELY LISTEN TO

  1. Frequently you touch a nerve with me, Sista. I wonder if we don’t all have those dark worries of what’s it all for and what’s the point and it’s too late. This is such a powerful song because it hits us all in that very frightening place. I don’t know what to say except hold on for dear life.

  2. It is like touching a sore tooth, hard to stop!
    Wishing you love and joy!

  3. Indubitably, Madame.  The Man in Black’s rendition of that song is an absolute throat-clencher.  And, for me, makes a stunning companion piece of existential devastation for the following (NEVER to be listened to during the same week):

    “HARRY’S CIRCUMCISION”, LOU REED
    Should you ever find yourself feeling a bit too upbeat, this cut from Mr. Reed’s crushing 1991 MAGIC AND LOSS is a fine curative.
    If your mood is already low, it will keep you indoors for the next 12 hours.
    A gorgeous but wrenching 5:28 aural depressant.

  4. Precisely, Ms. Meikle! For me, at least, that teetering is a critical component in the song’s discomforting. That ambiguity, the ambivalence over whether to be scaldingly amused or suffocatingly overwhelmed—not dissimilar to the experience of witnessing the inhabitants of a locked psychiatric ward. (And, just to answer any possible curiosity, no, I have never been in such places as a patient, only a visitor. ;-). )

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