Once again, for your delectation, my monthly ‘Pheonix Flights’ progress report on my aims/ambitions for this year.
After the initial shaky start, April has actually been quite good all in all 🙂 .
However, since Lent finished, I have lapsed back into being a lazy, late sleepin’, TV watching old sloth, but these days are numbered as the communal heating goes off in a couple of days which should help get my lazy ass out of the door, so best foot forward for May!
As per last month, my psychological model/imaginary friend ‘The Good Parent’ (who Aunty C bangs on about all the time) will be the ‘voice’ of my Action Points.
<Jeez, no wonder I’m friggin’ barking….>
As I am rapidly running out of ‘airborne things’ to stay in keeping with the ‘Flights’ theme (even last months insects were more crawly than fliers), so let’s dig deeper into the animal kingdom and look at the world of le Chat :-).
GO OUTSIDE EVERY DAY
Whilst I still have that Ragdoll urge to just flop out, my more outgoing Burmese side is coming more and more to the fore.
So, whilst I recognise and finally accept that I will always need my duvet days and a bit of solitude, I am a whole lot more willing to get out and about nowadays.
Action Point – ‘Keep it up and make the most of the duvet days whilst you still can (see Earn Money)!’
BE UP AND DRESSED BY 9A.M. EVERY DAY
The Runt of the Litter
I have no choice with regard to the time that I awake because according the house hierarchy, I appear to be the Runt of the Litter, given that my cats generally bully me into wakefulness every day by jumping on my most tender body parts, scratching my scalp, batting me in the eye with their paws, and most recently, chewing my hair. That said, I tend to stagger off to the kitchen, feed ‘em, then slink back to my pit whilst they are tucking in.
Also, like all cats, I’m a bit nocturnal so still not good at getting to bed before midnight.
Action Point – ‘As per last month, go to bed on time and get up as soon as cats arrive’.
WATCH LESS TV
The House Cat
Like the House Bound Cat, who has nothing better to do, I’ve lapsed back into the super bad habit of staring at the box for hour after hour, and especially at trash daytime TV. So I acknowledge and recognise that I must put aside my addiction to ITV2 and mad, overprivileged American ‘Housewives’ bitching at nothing and screaming at one another and focus on more important things instead.
Action Point – ‘Bad kitty! Only watch quality stuff, no more than a couple of hours a day maximum.’
TURN UP/STOP CANCELLING ARRANGEMENTS
I’m pretty proud of myself on this one! I’ve only pulled out of arrangements when really tired, I turned up for all of my yoga modules and I made it to a party on Saturday after a big panic attack.
Hey, hey, hey!
Action Point – ‘Keep up the good work.’
KEEP/MAKE NEW FRIENDS
The Burmese is not only friendly but a ‘chatty’ cat, and like this gorgeous kitty, I have been very sociable this month, seen more of my existing friends and made a few new ones too!
Being an Empath I tend to get a bit overwhelmed by people sometimes and can be a bit lazy at small talk, but I’ve been careful about who I’ve spent time with so I don’t get drained, I’m open to believing that I’m likeable enough to be friends with, and have made more effort in social situations, so pretty pleased with my progress here :-).
During the course of 2013, certain people have moved or are moving out of my life, but lots are moving in, so I’ve just got to have faith in the process and that everything has been and is for the best.
Action Point – ‘Keep up the good work, and trust your own instincts. When you’re comfortable being your self, the right people do and will come and stay into your life.’
LOOK AFTER MYSELF
Like the Persian I have been a bit lazy this month.
Unlike the Persian who weighs no more than a bag of feathers, I have put some excess timber on that needs to come off ASAP :-(.
My diet hasn’t been that bad, but have had a couple of pasta nights with friends, oops….
Action Point – ‘Lay off the lasagne Garfield, and join some kind of Bootcamp club or hire a (cheap) personal trainer if you can’t discipline yourself.’
Just like Thomas O’Mally and Duchess, I’ve been cutting a rug quite a lot recently both at ballroom lessons and at a recent party I had a good salsa (and a little more besides) and really enjoy both.
Rinky tinky tinky!
Sorry had to share this picture too, this cat looks just like me at a salsa club, just about to stick my stiletto into some dirty bastard’s foot 🙂
Action Point – ‘Sign up for the Intermediate Ballroom course and find somewhere nice to salsa where you won’t get groped.’
DRINKING AT HOME
Most cats aren’t that fussed about drinking, but the Bengal really likes water, and I’ve learned to embrace H2O of an evening and have largely eschewed drinking alcohol at home.
And if I really fancy a tipple? I have ONE G&T rather than open a bottle of wine which would then need to be finished over the next few days. Oh and every now and then I have hot milk laced with Baileys before bed 🙂
Action Point – ‘Well done, keep it up! Your liver and skin with love you for it!’
GET WORK/A JOB/EARN MONEY
The Scaredy Cat
Speaks for itself doesn’t it?!
Apart from Saturday night, I’ve done really well with regard to managing panic attacks and keeping the Fear at bay and I’m afraid that if I go back out into the corporate world, it will all come flooding back, and I don’t think I can take that, as I’ve come so far and never want to be that person again.
But money doesn’t grow on trees, so I’m going to try making stuff and selling it, be it cake, toiletries or toys and keep my eye open for a part time job so I don’t get overwhelmed by a 5 day week. I’m also exploring going back into remedial massage.
Action Point – ‘Well, that rendered anything I have to say obsolete, didn’t it?!’
OK, so whilst I haven’t exactly been a sex kitten, as like the Siamese I’m discerning about whom I get close to, but I do like a cuddle from the right guy, and am a lot more chatty and flirty around the male of the species of late.
Also something has started purring again, and I’ll give you a clue, it’s not my mouth, it’s my p…..
Yes, my libido appears to be back, haven’t checked my orgasm for a while so must see if that is any better, and will report back accordingly ;-).
Dating wise, I met Groin Guy, and he was nice but there was no chemistry but I haven’t arranged anything else for a while but do have a date tonight, which I’m not looking forward to, as we spoke on the phone and he sounded a bit insincere/potentially duplicitous to me. I know, I can’t really judge him before I meet him (which is why I’m going) but my instincts are second to none and I’m already getting alarm bells….
But I’m going! I promise….
I also seems to be getting attention from some younger toms in the ‘hood, but just can bring myself to go there, alas….
Action Point – ‘Don’t you dare bail on tonight! I know you want to…. Arrange one date a week until something happens, or failing that, shag that Italian Stallion before your foof goes into a massive sulk again….’
LIKE WHAT I SEE IN THE MIRROR
I’m not even going to try and fudge this one.
I don’t like what I see.
My belly is fatter but my face is thinner and my neck is getting more and more scraggy. My skin is drying up and veins are starting to show through my legs, and every now and again I get a Dennis Healy eyebrow hair that curls up and takes on a life of its own. Oh and my hands are starting to look ancient….
Action Point – ‘You can’t look that bad if you are attracting young blokes at parties? Anyway remember that saying about the words you speak ending up being your life? Try and see your good points rather than the bad.’
Yes, but he just wanted a…
‘Enough! No more negatives, do as you are told.’
The Sleeping Cat
The Sleeping Cat is apparently the symbol of peace in Japan, and you will be surprised to discover that I am not angry with anyone anymore.
Not even my old boss and he’s a total cock….
This is progress indeed, I can’t remember a time when I’ve not been furious with someone….
Action Point – ‘Who are you? And more to the point, what have you done with Sista?!’
THE ARTIST’S WAY
Typical eh, as soon as I add this to the list I stop doing it….
If I remember rightly, I was doing the evening pages one night, trying to get some help on something from God and nothing happened.
In fact I felt worse, so I think it put me off a bit…..
Action Point – ‘Give it another go, just pick up where you left off.’
KEEP NURTURING MY CREATIVITY
I have and I do, but I could do more…..
Am (obviously) still writing, still knitting but have a boxful of fabric that I have yet to put to good use….
Action Point – ‘Start making things and when you perfect them, you can sell them and set up your own company!’
I’ve given Yoga its own posting as I’ve been really neglectful of late and it’s typical of me, I find something I love, then I stop doing it.
Why? I have no fucking clue.
So whilst I’m great at Shivasana, this will not bring me customers come Autumn.
Action Point – ‘Get Downward Dogging already! And do something EVERY SINGLE DAY.’
So. Not a bad month all in all!
I’m not such a shitty kitty anymore, and with the right mate, could even be a Lovecat 🙂 As long as my boyz approve, natch….
I’ve finally achieved some level of forgiveness, I’m more sociable, less anxious but still have stuff to work on.
Wish me luck on that date tonight, just hoping I don’t get sprayed….